Pleasantly Demented

her thought process appears to be disorganized with the presence of flight of ideas and hallucinations

5:22 PM

Oh Child

March 8, 2011

I remember you inside me. Raising hell.
You took my body as your own.
Molded my bones to build your temple.
Stretched me, swelled me, fenced your home to spin your web.
You saw your budding toes while mine became hidden.
The darkness inside me saved you from the harshness outside me.
My heart beating above you, my breath fighting for space against you- all the soundtrack of your squirming little dance.
A seed of a child sown within a child- sapling to infant, girl to woman.
I grew you.
You grew me.

You took what you wanted, stole it. But I would have given it to you.
The gentle havoc you wrought left me dazed. Was this body enough for you?
You took it all, took it over, erased the child I was to color the child you’d become.
The tiny heart of you beat for every step I took as a girl, and every tear I’d cry as a woman.
I made you.
You made me.

I’ve watched you outside me. Raising hell.
The tearing, gnawing, ripping of your wicked escape healed.
My bones are stronger for you, for all the times you’ve sought my shelter.
The evidence of your presence remains- the web you stretched me to spin.
Your toes are bigger than mine.
And the harshness outside me is no match for your fierce indignation.
My heart beats in secret for every moment of freedom you steal, the open windows, the stretching- inch by inch- of the cord between us.
I hold you.
You let go.

23 minions who have sucked on my crap:

Sapphire Dragonflies said...

beautiful...

Dafeenah said...

Simply amazing

ib said...

This was well written. It's nice to read something that excercises the mentals.

SarcasmInAction said...

so beautiful!

AbsolutelyPrimed said...

love

Tom said...

Wonderful.
If I would ever admit to crying over a blog.
Just one tear, its that good :-)

The Sweetest said...

Oh, what an incredible piece. A poignant depiction of motherhood.

Organic Meatbag said...

That was really wonderful!

Indigo said...

Holy wow! Gorgeous. (Hugs)Indigo

Jayne said...

I loved this. LOVED.

THE SARCASM GODDESS said...

Your writing is breathtaking. Absolutely beautiful.

letmestartbysaying said...

Love this, love the toes line...
Came by from TRDC.

Jules said...

What a beautifully written post.

A Cappelli said...

Oh, wow, this is gorgeous. Exquisite imagery. Reading it- I can vividly feel the time 13+ months ago when I was pregnant with my fourth baby, Violet.

Galit Breen said...

This was was just...stunning. Truly.

Yvonne said...

Wow, that was amazing. I found you on TRDC, and I know we're supposed to comment, but I just can't comment on something that doesn't touch me or reach me. Not even in return for some possible return comments. It goes against my grain. This touched me, you have beautiful words.

Rene/ Not The Rockefellers said...

This was so effing unbelievably excellent.
Incredible.
Just Wow.

Mandyland said...

Wow. I don't know what else to say. Except...wow.

Jenna said...

that was breathtaking. thank you for sharing from a very deep place.

Cheryl said...

Just lovely.

Christine said...

very nice.

The Reason You Come said...

Gorgeous! Plus what they all said.

Imperfect Bird said...

My favorite part of this is how you came full circle "I remember you inside me. Raising hell.", "I've watched you outside me. Raising hell.". Also the circularity (is that even a WORD? but you know what I mean...) of child growing inside child...you becoming a woman, your child growing older.

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